Rule Number 32: Enjoy The Little Things.

I saw Zombieland this weekend, and it taught me something.. I don't have it so bad, infact I have it fucking great. Sometimes I try to write things here and it's like.. 'Hmm what can I bitch about' but that is just silly, I mean I have nothing against bitching but it's so much better when it's real and raw. When you really feel it. I'm getting of topic, so this movie is killer, it's about this reclusive loser loner kid who drinks mountain dew and plays World of Warcraft gets his 'reality' shattered and finds out the entire world has been taken over by Zombies. Along the way he runs into other humans and hilarity ensues. So this kid has a list of rules on how to survive Zombieland, certain things like Cardio, keep your cardio up and you can always outrun the zombies, or the double tap, which means always shoot twice, and make sure they're dead. Well my personal favorite was rule number 32: Enjoy the little things, which the kid learned from a wreckless blood loving zombie killer named Talahase (no one went by their given names due to the short expectancy of life and the attachment reasons) which basically revels in the sheer art of killing zombies in unique ways..Or aquiring a Twinkie before it's expiration date. But in my own twisted mind it applies to our reality as well. I enjoy the little things, in my own version of Zombieland, such things like hearing Seth's crazy laughs, or just random singing. Or the way Nadya will suddenly hide and pounce out of corners to attack me, which she's done many times. Or spending the night in just playing RPG's for hours on end, letting myself completely drift of into alternate realities, and burst out laughing at the dialogue. I'm currently 50 hours into SMT: Persona 4 and it's the best SMT game I've played yet. I put 120 hours into SmT: Persona 3 until I completed it, just to give you an idea how insanely dense these games are. I know it sounds extremely dorky, but I love it, these are extremely thought out story lines and plots, with well developed characters that you just can help but love. See? Give me room to talk about it and I could do so forever. Anyways these little things keep me sane.. Keep me going in a sense, making Zombieland a little less of a burden to deal with. Oh and on an end note the movie is worth seeing to, for all of those who care.

Peace,
Dal.

"Great Shipwreck Of Life"

That title pretty much sums it up, I took it from the latest IAMX album, The Kingdom Of Welcome Addiction, I highly recommend it. It's a song about things not quite working out the way you expected. At least that's what I've gotten from it, I wish I could report that things are going well, but they're not. Now, I've also drawn this picture, hopefully it'll shine some light into the situation. I don't know where things are going right now, I'm feeling fairly horrible, perhaps this weekends road trip through southeastern Utah will help. We're searching for ghosts, but maybe I'll also learn to see some ghost that haunt me on a daily basis.

.critical prick.

Here is another self serving rambler, sigh, I've learned recently that the world doesn't revolve around me, what a shocker right? I'm not the center of the universe and people get along just fine without me. I'm sad today because I've realized just how critical and severe I am to those that are around me. I have the ability to completely deconstruct people and point out every single tiny flaw I might see in them, why I would consider it an ability, I dunno, lately it seems more like a curse, but add that with a severely broadened range of emotions, and it elevates to an even more intense scenerio. I realize that this is one of those self loathing posts, and it really doesn't service any purpose, but there was a time, these reactions were initionally activated due to my own self defense and preservation. When someone has a problem, why do I automatically think it has something to do with me? Or somehow I can turn the entire situation from being something completely different, into something about me. It makes me sick, I make myself sick. So yeah, I'm sorry I'm such an critical prick, and it seems like I don't care, but in fact I do, to much sometimes.. I'd rather address these issues and try to resolve them instead of just losing everything around. On a side note I've really started to consider that I might need some sort of mood stablizers...

I'm going to keep thinking about this because it's something that is important to me..

CnS.